O Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord. You hem me in- behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the Heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me , your right hand will hold me fast… Psalm 139: 1-10
The City of Loneliness…It’s not a fun place to be. It can feel hopeless and desolate. It can feel like an echo crying out from your soul, only to hear your own hurting voice cry back to you. Its’ streets have no laughter or joy. There is no sunshine or gardens in bloom. The only sound we can hear is the sound of the wind that is so cold that it pierces us when we breathe in. We think that nobody knows our names in the City of Loneliness. We allow our heartbreak to take our thoughts down dark alley ways where we lay awake at night thinking about everything that has gone wrong in our lives and how we aren’t ever going to let anyone treat us this way or that way ever again. By doing this, we are closing the gates and locking ourselves in with heavy chains where nobody can get to us.
We feel like there is no way out and no hope of a better future because we keep looking over our shoulder at all the bad instead of looking ahead with even an ounce of positive thought. It’s so easy to stay in this mode of travel isn’t it? But it doesn’t have to be this way.
We hold the key to get out of this barren city. If the same God, who created us, knows us as the Psalm says, then why do we stay so negative in our minds? I can tell you why I presume this. Because we chose not to read what He says to us in scripture, or if we do, we don’t believe it whole heartedly. We are flawed creatures and we do not fully comprehend just how loved we are because we are so bound by the world around us. We were designed to be known. We were not designed to be living a life without the community of others and when we shrink away into our loneliness we close the door for others to love us because we think we are unworthy.
I think within all of us is a deep desire to be known, and whether we want to admit it or not, we like it when someone smiles at us or touches us. We like it when someone asks us how we are and is truly interested. Lord, break these chains and let us out of this City of Loneliness and allow us to know just how deeply you love us.